Journey ~ Reflections of Ecstasy

Reflections of Ecstasy
Journey into the Beloved
Lady Star Alexander · (aka Joyce Jakin)
A simple path to set you free, like a mirror that only you can see.

 Reflections of Ecstasy

Author’s Note – A Journey Into Light & Love
Dear Beloved Seeker,

You are holding in your hands words born in a moment of surrender and rebirth — a time when life held both fragility and mystery. In 1980, during a surgical journey that nearly became my final farewell, I was thrust into a realm beyond this world. In that luminous space, I met my soul family. Surrounded by unconditional love and radiant light, I realized that the voice of judgment which had whispered “not enough” in my ear was nothing but illusion. I woke with a new heart, humbled and transformed.

Out of that awakening came poems — fragments of vision, longing, and spiritual yearning. They were my way of remembering the visions; my way of asking, “Why am I here? What am I meant to become?” As I explored metaphysics, dreams, and ancient teachings, I felt the pulse of something deeper: the longing of the soul for union, for truth, for love that transcends form.

This collection — these poems — reflect that early journey: the ecstasy and agony, the yearning and surrender, the longing for reunion with the Beloved, and the search for identity beyond ego. I offer them not as doctrine, but as raw, honest expressions of the soul’s search for meaning.

But life did not stop there. The quest deepened. Over time, the cosmic call led me to a kindred spirit, a partner in soul and purpose — my “Star.” Together, we walked a path of oneness, healing, trust, and love. What once was longing became union. What once was yearning bloomed into shared purpose.

As you read these pages, I invite you to listen to your own heart. Perhaps my words will echo your own longing. Perhaps they will stir remembrance of a deeper truth long buried. I offer this collection as a mirror — for you to see, reflect, and remember who you really are: a child of the cosmos, a seeker of the sacred, a being of love and light.
With love and blessings,
Lady Star Alexander (aka Joyce Jakin)

 

I · Awakening & Ecstasy
Near-death light, the XTZ symbol, and the first language of ecstasy.

Reflections… into the State of Ecstasy

January 13, 1982 · Denver, Colorado

REFLECTIONS …
into the state of ECSTASY
a simple path, to set you free

within a mirror
that only you can see
and you decide to what degree

 

REFLECTIONS …
take a chance, come with me
into the beautiful world of ECSTASY

love heart

— Joyce Jakin
into the night-stare

“The journey continues through the spiral, interweaving the heights of ecstasy and the depths of despair, the two desperately trying to become one. At this moment, I am caught up by grief and pain and the agony of such incredible loneliness. Death would be a blessing, but I cannot surrender even to that. If I must know the ebbs of my lowest tide in order to know the heights, then I pray that this not hesitate and let this moment pass. I am not frightened of death, for I do have faith. I have a knowing. I have known ecstasy of Christ’s love filling my heart, filling my being. Perhaps that’s why I feel so lonely now. I need to return to that love spiral to flood this empty void with the most brilliant flowing light that fills my entire being with the oneness of the universe. So is it so wrong to wish for death, to leave behind this cold and lonely existence? Well, if only, if only I could surrender.”
– January 13, 1982

   I surrender …

without the fear

that has always kept me

from getting near

Spirit -XTZmy hands tremble

but not from fright

I surrender …

here comes the light

There comes a time when we must make a commitment to whatever our belief systems are.  I believed in “separation” when I was in that spiral.  It took years to realize that everything served and was important to my evolvement.  In some cultures this was called the “Shaman’s death” a path of rebirth by the initiate to align with the will of Great Spirit. 

Integration

Right & Left Become ONE
integrated hemi